Day 2: What If I Let God Down?

Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)

Thought for the Day: I wept as I realized this would be one of the most significant spiritual journeys of my life. A spiritual journey that would yield great physical benefits.

I recently received an email from a woman who wrote, “Lysa, one of my greatest fears in reading Made to Crave is not just letting myself down, but even worse, letting God down.”

I understand how she feels. When you’ve tried and failed as many times as I have, you start to feel gun-shy about trying again. I’d lose the weight, feel great for a couple of months, deceive myself into thinking I could return to old habits, and all the weight would creep back on. I’d failed at finding lasting victory with every other attempt, even with programs I thought were the sure thing. So, why would this one be any different?

And why in heavens would I want to add spiritual guilt on top of my physical guilt? Why would I risk the shame of making God look bad too?

Guilt wrapped in shame is a terrible burden to carry. Guilt always came when I knew I was making poor choices and could see the scale numbers climbing. Shame came when my weight gain became apparent to everyone else in the world. Battling something so raw, so deeply personal was hard; knowing my failures were apparent to everyone else added humiliation to my toxic stew of emotions.

Yes, the physical struggle was hard enough. I certainly didn’t want to drag down my spiritual life with this struggle as well.

But here’s the problem: whether or not I wanted to admit it, my weight issues were already dragging me down spiritually. When I don’t have peace physically, I don’t have peace spiritually. I can’t separate the two. Nor should I. I need spiritual motivation to step in where my physical determination falls short.

So I started reading the Bible from the perspective of someone struggling with food issues. Though I had read the Bible many times and have even taught Bible studies for years, I’d missed how much God cares about and talks about this issue. Tucked within this book written thousands of years ago are some of the most astounding and life-changing truths directly applicable to this modern-day unhealthy eating epidemic that plagues women.

I wept with joy. I wept with relief. I wept as I realized this would be one of the most significant spiritual journeys of my life. A spiritual journey that would yield great physical benefits. And what about my concerns with letting God down?

My pastor, Steven Furtick, put that to rest one day with a simple but very profound truth, “How can you let God down when you weren’t ever holding Him up?”

I had to choose to operate in the reassurance of God’s love, the remembrance of God’s grace, and the reality of God’s power. And, according to Isaiah 41:10, God is the one holding me up, not the other way around. To that I say, “Amen!”

Dear Lord, this is one of the most significant spiritual journeys of my life. Help me to focus on You as I battle this raw, personal issue. I need You today. In Jesus’
name. Amen.

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Comments

  1. Dear Lysa
    It is such a true blessing when you are not the only one that feels the same way as I do.Letting God down has always been my heart
    break. I havebeen on a diet al of my life. A Jewish believer since 2001. I only want to a be a vessel for the Lord because our bodies are his temple. I pray that I now can finally do this. Thank you again for all your support and please continue to bless all of your sister in Christ. I will continue to lift you and your ministry in prayer.
    Helayne

  2. I too, have failed so many times. Even times when after a few weeks or months, I would think, “this is it, this is the real deal, and this will be forever!” I’ve come to the belief that those are always the wrong words to say. Why? Because if the weight comes back on, for whatever reason, we feel like we’ve failed. No only ourselves, but those around us, and our God. When we feel that way, it makes it so utterly hard to want to ever try again. We let satan lie to us, and tell us that this fat, unhappy person is who God meant for us to be. We shouldn’t set ourselved up for that. We should understand that it’s all part of a lifelong process of making the next right choice. Reguardless of how many times we make a wrong choice, or a series of wrong choices, we haven’t failed. We only fail when we cease to keep trying to move forward, and give up.

    I started this latest weightloss journey in July of ’11 and am todate, 32 pounds down from where I started. (At 222 lbs) I have gained a few back, lost them, continued to lose, gained one or two, lost more. But on the whole, I keep going down, and I’m so grateful!! I read your book, Made to Crave when I started my journey. It has been a very valuable resource for me! I won’t dare say that, this is it this time. What I will say, is that I now have the tools to support me in making the right decisions, and I will strive to be obidient to the Lord in my food and exercise choices each day. When I stumble, it’s not a failure. It’s an opportunity to build strength as I keep making the next right choice!!!

    Thank you Lysa! My God continue to bless you, and your ministry. Praying for both! With Love in Christ, ~Kristi~

  3. I have stuffed with food all my life. I never felt accepted by my peers and my dad, so I ate. And rejection has been a wound in my life. And I know through Hesus and your book I can conquer this. Thank you for the book and praying for me.
    Kathy

  4. Thank you for your vulnerability in this area, for my life and for so many others.
    God is the only answer and I’ve known this for years as a christian.
    I have struggled for 45 years with this battle and the thing that has stood out to me most with your words is when you talk about just accepting that this is how it is and this is what my destiny is. Too be fat and daily struggle with weight and bad eating habits. Coming from a long line of addictive behaviors, mine has landed on food. I know God has deliverance and freedom, I pray I can attain it. Thank you again!
    In Christs Love, Candace

  5. I have felt this way before. I heard a message one time and Psalms 103:14 was brought up. For He knows how we are formed, He remembers that we are dust. (NIV) He knows us, we can’t really disappoint Him, that is why we need Him so bad! I love how you said you read the Word from the perspective of the food issue struggle. I also love the verse Isaiah 41:10! I appreciate so much your honesty and openness in your own struggle. Thanks so much for sharing with us and leading us first of all to the LORD and then for the healthy walk with Him!
    Blessings,

  6. I love this subject, because it hits home, and it is the first declaration in dedication to the diet group at my church. That we ask God daily to provide, and we promise God that we will follow the principals of the eating guides. I have a hard time making such a promise when I have so many reservations in my head. I need to rely more on God and let Him strengthen me. I need to trust him to carry me. I will continue to strive towards entering this agreement, and I will pray for the trust and obiedience needed to start and keep a life change.

  7. Aweome!!!!

  8. Hi Lysa-
    I am a little or maybe a lot confused. I signed up to do the online MTC. Do I go to Twitter, Facebook or just my email? (The first 2 I do not know well at all.) I saw your webcast on Monday night. Very motivating. I also have the book, workbook and have ordered the devotion and one more book…. I forget the name of the last book. I do not know how to get in touch with Melissa Taylor, who I believe is leading this. Please help to straighten me out. (It is not you, Melissa or MTC that has cropped the ball in making things clear. I am sure it is me!)

    I really need help in this area of food addiction- more than I will write here because I don’t know who can read all of this. But, I thank you for letting God take control of your life, which has brought about this wonderful book! I so need Him to take control of my life!

    Thank you for reading!
    Claudia

  9. Love Pastor Furtick’s wise words. I’m going to write this one down.

  10. Lysa,
    Thank you so much for sharing your heart and for seeking the Lord in this issue. It could be me writing what you wrote today about your struggle with food. I have struggled with food and my body image ever since puberty I think. I am so tired of thinking about food all of the time. I pray for deliverance from this issue. I too will begin to read the bible with the food issue in mind.

  11. I have also felt this way so many times in my life. It didn’t always involve my problem with weight even. It could be any number of issues when I felt I had failed & let God down in the process. Now I see this more of a spiritual journey then a physical one. I am on my third time through the book & leading a study of it at my church. There are 24 of us strong going through the journey together! Thank you Lysa for sharing your story, your struggles & your victories through Him!

  12. I too have and was feeling this way, in fact i was thinking it today and I read the devotional for today and it was God answering my insecurities, I don’t want to let God down, I love him so much,. I pray that prayer gladly and putting all my trust in him.

  13. Thank you Lysa! I love your honesty, and I love the prayer at the end of this devotion… WOW! It is my prayer as well. Blessings! May this year be different for all of us girls (and boys) struggling with food issues. 🙂 🙂

  14. Thank you, Lisa! The battle is not mine alone, God is with me through the battle!

  15. Ditto to what Mel says! Praise His Holy Name!

  16. How can we let God down when He knows the out come?

  17. Wow! You know what? I have separated the two in my mind as well…thinking, ‘How will I have the time to read the bible and study scripture directly related to weight loss?’ You’re awesome, Lysa! Just reading the devotion from today has helped me to see something so simple and yet extremely beneficial to this journey. Right now, every time I read God’s Word it should be from the perspective of someone struggling with the very issue(s) I am dealing with! Now, the getting rawly honest with God part, I know there will be pain involved, but I have asked God to dig this garbage up from deep within me and get it out because I know it’s been very toxic in my life. Well…headed to work out. It’s the elliptical today!

  18. “When I don’t have peace physically, I don’t have peace spiritually. ” Truer words have not been spoken. I have not been able to come out and say this but knew that my weight issues are occupying too much of my time and too much of my focus…for way too long. It has been in the last year that I was able to realize that fact alone. It was like a light went off when I realized that fact alone. I cannot wait to see what all I learn on this journey and how I am able to turn my focus from me to the ONE who deserves my total focus.

  19. I work with men who have drug addictions. I tell them, and my co-workers that I also have an addiction–it is to food. I KNOW that the Lord forgives them, the second they fail, and bring it to the Lord. And we need to remember He sees us that way too. We must forgive ourselves and know we have a CLEAN SLATE, not just every morning, but the moment we confess our failings and ask him to pick us back up. Just as I know God can deliver my clients, I know God can deliver all of us who struggle with this addiction of food! And, we can’t expect perfection in ourselves, as we do not in anyone else.

  20. Greetings, I just read day two devotion & my heart totally broke in God;s presence as I was so over-come with The Love of God, because the lies were exposed that I could not do this again /// I felt so defeate as I have lost 100’s of pounds over the years & regained , that at this point I was ready to give up as I was feeling like such a failure.and when I read the Devotion God showed me my heart/and as I poured out my heart to to The Liveing God, Hope came back, my sin was washed away, I feel fresh & renewed & God said He would strenghten me, and HOLD MY RIGHT HAND.well at this point over-whelming graditude swept through me, and now I know God & I will be able to walk this out this time & the 100 lbs. of weight WILL release my body as I can now make the right choices with God;s strenth & God holding my right hand……….Thank you Lisa for allowing this Devotion to be re-run .God is so blessing you.Helena

  21. This journey is amazing !!! I recently noticed that I had a problem with eating . God showed me that I turned to food for comfort. But God wanted me to go deeper and ask myself why do I need the comfort? He was searching my heart for honesty and transparency with myself and really come to his feet and enter into his presence to let go of those things and emotions that I was afraid to let go of. He was showing me that I needed healing and restoration from the situations in my family which I could not control. Food was the only thing I could control and I turned to it. The more I ate and indulged in the things I loved to eat the farther I felt from GOD. When I got the email about the Made to Crave through the Encouragement daily devotionals I knew God heard my prayers. !!! I thank GOD for every woman that is participating and also for Lysa you all make a difference one way or another. Lorena

  22. Wow! I REALLY needed to hear that today! Thank you for sharing. I have struggled for all my life with this issue. In the past I have done a weight loss Bible Study and I did lose weight. It did creep back on (A LOT crept back on) after having babies. I felt so much guilt…I felt like I was such a disappointment to God since I went right back to old habits. I also felt like everyone saw my spiritual and physical failure. I am committed to doing this study, with the devotional and healthy eating plan, but I am scared too. I am afraid of failing again. I am realizing that my healthy eating success will come from God’s strength in my life, not my own. I pray I can remember that daily, and not let my past mistakes rule my thoughts and eating. Please pray for me 🙂 Thank you!

  23. Thank you for the gift of sharing your journey. I dont doubt that God walked every step with you. I can feel and hear it in your words…i feel privileged that you shared this personal journey woth all us who have struggled so long with these issues. I have not bought your book yet because i am afraid to invest in one more thing….i must own every diet book, health book,Dr. OZ recommended supplement on the market….I pray everyday for a healing. I admit my spiritual relationship with my God can use a growth spurt so in faith I am walking this journey, feeling a slow awakening to new insights and feelings…I cannot quite put my finger on what will be different this time but I am very willing to take rhis journey…thank you for leading and ligbting the way…may God bless every woman on this journey with every blessing she needs…

  24. MaryAnne Wollman says

    “When I don’t have peace physically, I don’t have peace spiritually.” This is what jumped off the page at me today. Such truth in the simplicity of the words. Yet, the two seem so closely intertwined. A concept I think I have had reversed or have not honored and, as a result, has ben causing me to feel like a failure at experiencing an intimate relationship with Jesus. And that has always been my jumping off point where all the walls come tumbling down…failure at (_____________). Our earthly bodies: the gift that, while on Earth, can either stand in the way of our spiritual connection with Him or they can be the vessel waiting to be filled with Him. The upside of the process: every disappointment or challenge is an opportunity to draw near to Jesus.

  25. Thank you for sharing this , as I read what your pastor said and the scripture in Isaiah I thought of all those times I was ashamed that I had failed in so many ways before the Lord and that I didn’t want to let him down. What a profound statement that I was never holding him up. I look back at my failures and I truly believe God smiles that I even put forth the effort to try. to never try is to remain exactly where you are. Thank you agin for allowing God to use you. God Bless Susan

  26. Sandra Johns says

    I already have your book, and planning book, I can’t afford to buy more. I thought your devotional was a help for those attempting to use a food plan. not just something else to sell. I am sorry I just don’t have any extra money budgeted for anything else but emergencies. Sandra Johns

  27. I am going to attempt this. I did start last year about this time and lost 12 pounds. I have gained 7 back already. Once again I am in the cycle I can’t seem to get out of. I try to remember that “A seback is only a set up for a comeback”. So I am starting again but …. help me Jesus.

  28. Thank you thank you!

  29. Thank you! I have been on a progressive weight gain for about five years now, I know partially due to the stress of my new job. I have turned the stress of the position over to the Lord, but your devotions (and I’m just on day 2 of the previews) are such a blessing this may be the answer I’ve been looking for to helping me focus at least a little on taking care of me as well as my executive and the department staff. THANK YOU!

  30. Just finsihed Taebo Power and burned 1000 calories on the elliptical…feeling pumped!!! Movie nite tonite with the ladies…so excited!!!

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